Heartbeat!

After more suprise spotting Friday morning, I called the Dr and went in for bloodwork and ultrasound. Guess what? We saw a heartbeat! WOW! It was unbelievable. Everything seems to be okay. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping and praying to get through the next 6 weeks as quickly as possible.

5 Week 2 days Report

On Friday(13th) afternoon I had a spot of red on my panties the size of a half dollar. Naturally, I freaked out! I called the DR and they said that this is normal, however, since my blood type is RH negative, I would need to come in to make sure that my body did not begin to produce antibodies against the fetus. According to Americanpregancy.org, “If you are Rh-negative, you can develop antibodies to an Rh-positive baby. If a small amount of the baby's blood mixes with your blood, which often happens, your body may respond as if it were allergic to the baby. Your body may make antibodies to the Rh antigens in the baby's blood. This means you have become sensitized and your antibodies can cross the placenta and attack your baby's blood. They break down the fetus's red blood cells and produce anemia (the blood has a low number of red blood cells). This condition is called hemolytic disease or hemolytic anemia. It can become severe enough to cause serious illness, brain damage, or even death in the fetus or newborn.” YIKES! So they had me come in Monday morning (16th of March) for an ultrasound and bloodwork and to receive this an injection or Rh immunoglobulin (RhIg), a blood product that can prevent sensitization of an Rh-negative mother. I was negative for the antibody screen so that was fine, and they gave me the injection so that took care of that.

Now on to bigger and better things…….THE ULTRASOUND! We saw 1 little sac!!! Yipeee!!!!! I can’t wait to see the heartbeat on Monday the 23rd! It will truly be a blessing! Much to my surprise they discovered I was suffering from OHSS (Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome). My ovaries were very large and fluid filled. There was also fluid all around them! I have been soooooooooo bloated and peeing every 5 minutes and extremely nauseous. I thought that these were all symptoms of the pregnancy, but as it turns out it was because I had fluid in my abdominal cavity. They told me to eat salty foods and drink Gatorade but call if I feel worse than I did. The nurse told me that most women who had this amount of OHSS would have been in their office in tears already. I just didn’t know, I thought it was part of the pregnancy package and was trying to “tough it out.” Silly me.

My Beta HCG came back 3750 and my progesterone was 180!

Today is 5 week 3 days…….6 more days until I get to see the heartbeat!

Beta #2

Great news to report. HCG is rising nicely. It was 600 today! Progesterone was 141 which sounded high, but they said that's good. I go in again for bloodwork and my first ultrasound on Thursday the 19th! The nurse told me that they look to see the sac or sacs!?!?! Oh boy!

BETA DAY!

Sorry I couldn't post sooner but my doctor's office did not call me with my results until 5 pm yesterday! Much to my extreme suprise my BETA HCG was 323! That's a positive. I AM PREGNANT! I am cautiously optimistic though. I know all too well, that I can't jump for joy just yet. I have another BETA HCG tomorrow to make sure that everything is doubling the way it should be.
Yeah! Yipeeeee! I will feel a little better after tomorrow's result confirm everything is okay and I will feel a lot better after I get to see a heartbeat. So for now I'm on pins and needles hoping & praying!

Talk About Torture

Some call TORTURE sleep deprivation, water boarding, forced standing, or starvation & thirst. I call TORTURE having to go to a birthday party for 1 year old twins (conveived naturally) Saturday and a baby shower Sunday when my beta test is Monday for my 3rd round of IVF! On Friday, most of us are looking forward to the weekend, but today, I'd rather work all weekend. It seems so evil that God would have it work out this way for me. I did not POAS today still because I know I need to get through this weekend as all is normal. If I do and its negative, I won't be able to function. I will have Monday home to reflect and await my results.

No More

Last night I was so damn depressed about the POAS I fell asleep at 6:30 pm (granted I wake up at 5 am), but still this is not normal behavoir. The anxiety & stress of this wait has left me emotionally and physically exhausted. I've decided that I can't handle POAS again, so I will not do it at all anymore and will just wait for my beta. At least there's a chance still because maybe I've tested too early? I took Monday off (Beta Day)of work so I can have the day to myself. If I need to grieve, I will be home. I just hope I POAS too early. If not, I can't wait to stop taking the estrogen and the progesterone because it is clearly making me so crazy and unstable. NO MORE POAS for me!

Big Fat Disappointment

Well as you can guess by my title, I took an HPT this morning and it was negative. I am 8dp 3dt. Maybe its too early, but maybe not? Either way I am totally down in the dumps. I didn't even tell my DH that I purchased some HPTs or that I took one so I have to pretend like nothing is wrong. I think I will wait to more days and try to take one again on Friday. For now, I'm going to do some Google searches on the topic.

Guilty

So I was driving around at lunch running some errands & when I was finished I somehow found myself close to the dollar store. I figured I should stop in and buy some HPTs. I know that POAS is so emotionally difficult, but I am so impatient. This whole 2WW thing is for the birds. Too long. I am thinking that I will at least wait until tomorrow morning to take one. This will be 8dp 3dt. I am scared, but certain that I need to know.
I'm just going to go out on a limb and say that I feel pregnant. I'm not sure if its just because things went better this time (so maybe my mind is playing tricks on me)? Or if I really am? My skin is super clear and I've felt crampy for days. I just feel different.
So there you have it.......tomorrow I will be guilty of taking an HPT prior to my beta! I will let you know how that goes.

6 DP 3 DT or 1 Week To GO

I am 6 days past a day 3 transfer or 1 week away from my HCG test. I'm slowly feeling the urge to POAS (pee on a stick), however, I'm scared. The behavoir (POAS) is so destructive to your emotional well being, especially when it says NEGATIVE. Not that I'm speculating either way. In my mind I FEEL like something is going on in my body, but then again I wonder if I am just losing my mind?!?!? I think that it would be too early for a POSITIVE even if it was a BFP? Dollar store is around the corner from my work, so the temptation is there. I am going to try and hold off for as long as I can. TORTURE, but I'm half way there!