No More

Last night I was so damn depressed about the POAS I fell asleep at 6:30 pm (granted I wake up at 5 am), but still this is not normal behavoir. The anxiety & stress of this wait has left me emotionally and physically exhausted. I've decided that I can't handle POAS again, so I will not do it at all anymore and will just wait for my beta. At least there's a chance still because maybe I've tested too early? I took Monday off (Beta Day)of work so I can have the day to myself. If I need to grieve, I will be home. I just hope I POAS too early. If not, I can't wait to stop taking the estrogen and the progesterone because it is clearly making me so crazy and unstable. NO MORE POAS for me!